GET LOST!

PLEASE!!

I WANNA SLEEP!
I WANNA STUDY!

CAN YOU JUST SHUT UP
AND DO WHAT YOU ARE SUPPOSE TO DO?

PLEASE!

I BEGG YOU!

STOP MAKING ME PISSED!

How I wish!

HOW I WISH?
I wish I will never meet u,
Mr. Lipton Tea,
but sometimes,
I dont regret or hate you..
because, besides one or two of my friends,
you are one of the one who really know me VERY WELL!
thanks for everything, seriously.. (:



HOW I WISH?
I wish I could meet you earlier,
Mr FLOWER,
seriously,
I dont know how am i going to feel,
or react on the day when u gonna leave ):
You are really awesome,
thankyou for always be right beside me! (:



HOW I WISH,
From JAN 2009,
I didnt get to change into this school,
SMK SBS~
Seriously, i regret,
being in here,
not being myself..



HOW I WISH,
I wish i could brainwashed myself,
so that,
all those stupid memories will disappear!

I dunno you will read this or not,
but yea,
ITS MY BLOG!
i write out what im thinking,
so if u dont like it!
just leave this web!
thankyou (:

hmmm, its been a long time since i really blog ha..

life still go on like normal,

but i realise,

those days when people tell you tat,

you are his / her best friend,

its all lying..

thankyou for showing the truth.

where you rather believe others people,

than me , the best friend you used to say,

isnt it funny? haha

you rather believe those bitches,

saying tat i went around brain-washing people's mind,

telling people how bad are you,

and how good am i?

come on, wth?! -.-

you know me for a freaking long time,

and now you just believe what those bitches said,

and dont bother asking me?

hahha..

anyway, these are all flashback,

now, i dont give a damn anymore,

you scolded me bitchy bitch,

its okay,

i dont need to call you so as you are stil my friend,

im not like you,

so sorry! haha

okayy, i think its the end for this post,

gtg! (:

Well i really dont remember

when did WENDY's story ends,

but anyway,

" you will never know the truth,

because you chose to believe those

who dont know the truth..

But, you will have to pay for

what you did,

what you scolded,

and also what u believe in!

PAY FOR IT! "

I asked you to stop, but you didnt!

Dear Tears...

Can you please stop dropping?

From xinyuan!

阴天，不一定会下雨。
分手，不一定最伤心。
憎恨，不一定会一辈子。
失望，不一定是绝望 。
面对，不一定最难过。
孤独，不一定不快乐。
拥有，不一定要厮守。
沉默，不一定是冷漠。
失去，不一定不再拥有。
失败，不一定会放弃。
奇迹，不一定不出现。

只要这一秒不绝望，下一秒一定会有希望

这些话，

我到底能在什么时候领悟到？

下一秒就会有希望？

我想，

下一秒，

我已经被打败了．．．

哭过了，

那又怎样？

第二天还是回到来，

问题还是会存在，

我，

能不能就这样放弃？

又没有人能够告诉我？

也许，

我根本重来就不该做这样的决定，

原以为朋友们都能给我鼓励，

为什么，

后来，现在，

我却一直在鼓励自己？

对，

也许我并不是个很好的领袖，

也许我比你们谁都来得无能，

可是，我已经尽力了，

再坚强的人，

有一天也会倒下，

而我，

也就会随时在这里，

这个点上，

倒下......

做自己，真的很难...

我只想做我自己，能开心的大笑。

不需要担心太多的事情。

这样，真的有那么难吗？

你们都有自己的理由，

所以我把所有东西都推到自己身上，

觉得那是我的责任，

因为你们不能做到，

所以我必须做到．．．

在我完成了的那一刻，

你却走过来告诉我，

告诉我你有多么的不想要这个工作，

告诉我你有多么的压力，

还要我想想你为什么会这样．．．．

我真的不知道应该怎么面对你说的一切，

难道我真的做错了吗？

是我的错吗？

如果是，那我不也应该埋怨自己并没有选择的权力吗？

难道这么久以来，

我说做的一切都是错的吗？

难道真的是这样吗？

原来，我在你眼了，

是那么的无能，

那，我也无话可说了．．．

接过了这个棒子后

就发现自己就没有好好地睡过，

也从来没有因为一个人所说的话而感到，

很压力，很无能.....

你，做到了！

开心吧？！

我现在唯一能做的，

也许只有不去在乎你的存在吧

因为任何一个不在乎自己的人，

根本不值得我为他付出。

Its about attitude

I do have real friends,

I do have close friends,

do i need to inform you?

do i need to ask for your information?

if you hate my blog..

just go away,

i dun give a damn...

just dun post stupid comments.. thanks

What if? What if?

If I hugged you,
would you never let go?

If I kissed you,
would you cherish that moment?

If I reached for your hand,
would you take mine gently?

If I need a shoulder,
would you let me cry on yours?

If I need to talk,
would you really listen?

If I need to scream,
would you do it with me?

If I need to go,
would you come with me?

If I fell for you,
would you catch me?
or just let me hit the pavement?

What if things really happen?

What if the day you gonna leave really reached?

What if we will never see each others anymore?

What if we lost contact?

What if?

What if?

i wish everything will not come true..

but what if things really happen?

i think,

im gonna miss you,

miss you very badly.. :(

Who do you think you are?

Heyyyy!!

Im back..

I guess everyone will be thinking like this,

Hahaha! same here! :)

I "suffered" every night,

stay up late,

to recall everything i had read..

Luckily someone accompany me through sms,

if not i sure fall asleep very early,

hahaha..

Thanks yea...

back to my main pont..

This post,

Is for the person that,

everyone of you thinks that,

she is a good person and a CLOSE fren to be,

when the facts were not like wat u guys think..

haih,

nevermind...

I just dun understand,

why is it so hard for you to tell people that u ecuali,

done with your revision..

not that when you said it out,

all your knowledge gonna fly away..

so why cant you say it?

why do you need to lie to everyone?

when exam finished,

people asked you,

" hey, how was it?"

you will reply,

" like shitt la.. i din even study.. i cant finish also, tembak only.."

then when exam paper is back,

you get FREAKING HIGH marks..

LOL. so you think is fun to lie to your fren?

excuse me,

we are all human,

so-called your fren,

why must you do so?

grrrrr....

Im speechless to YOU,

not gonna give a damn in a single thing of you,

not gonna get angry,

anyway im not at all.

just that,

please dun come to us when you need our help ONLY,

Thankyou!

One day,

im gonna success with my own hard work,

i will not lie to my fren,

im not like you,

who do you think you are?

being like a bitch,

barking around,

lying to everyone...

is it that fun>?

I just dun understand how can you live with that attitude?

YOU are the important ingredient of my recipe of life! ♥

Okayy,

this is the important human being that make me feel like blogging again..

She might not be someone special,

but she meant a lot to me..

It had been four months since the first day we met,

but we are like close frens,

that knew each others for yearssss....

Here is the important human being,

TADAAAAAA~~~

Yeaaaaa, Its SOOK SOOK! :) ♥

She looks "blurrr" like this when i first met her..

at first, everyone thought that she's gonna be someone,

like a "lala" or rather a weirdo,

because her previuos school is PP.. =X

but,

everyone is wrong..

She's totally different from anyone else...

Ever since i met her,

i don't remember me myself being sad,

or being an emo human..

sometimes, life is like this..

whenever you get hurt,

there will always be someone that will always be beside you,

and give you support,

or they will try their best to make you happy,

and here is the lil bitch that appeaedr in my life,

made my life more wonderful,

more colourful..

Its her, CHOW SOOK YEE..

Yeaaa, truee...

we knew each others only for like four months?

but im surprise tat we are so close..

and she's just someone that i can reallly,

share my lil dirty secrets with,

and i wouldn't worry that the next day,

the world will know bout it..

right, yiing?

Im sure you know her more than me! :)

Andddd,

she's someone that is very good in observing things,

before me and yiing were about to tell her,

bout someone or some "history",

she can just get it through her own observan,

so cool rite? hahahaaa...

Im also glad that,

she just told me all about her "history" ,

in the previous school without me asking! :P

Hey you lil bitch!

thanks for coming into my life,

thanks for transfering to this school,

thanks for making our school life not so boring..

hahhaahaa..

i dunno wat else to write anymore..

ohh yaaa...

thanks for mentioning my name in ur post!

here's was what i did for you! :)

Dear sook,

don't be upset anymore bout your " history",

okayy?

it's not worth it..

and seriously,

thanks for all your words,

that really comfort-ed me,

and made me happy..

Your blurness and my laughter,

made our school life more colourful isnt it?

of course including the big boggie girl, yiing! :)

生命里有些事情不能重来，

就像朋友一样，

一旦失去了就不能挽回，

所以，

我们要加油咯！:) ♥

Where rainbows end..

*Mr. Rubbish : Hey! I missed all the happy memory with u and HER during primary school!We played, we fight, we shout at each others. Wish to meet up with you two ! ;)

*Me : Ohhhh yeaa! Those memories were really awesome.. but.. me and HER are not close anymore.. :( Everything just happened out of a sudden.. haha?

Everyone is asking me WHY?

and i only know how to answer I DON'T KNOW...

can u tell me the answer?

Both of us just keep escaping from the problem..

okayy, fineee..

maybe u will said that you are not,

you feel nothing,

with all the arguement and misunderstanding..

But so sorry,

i could'nt do that..

I feel so so uncomfortable with it..

I don't understand why you chose to trust anyone else,

than me?

What i did?

It's so unfairrrr...

I stayed up late yesterday, AGAIN!

thanks to mr. rubbish..

he's another human being who keep asking me,

about what's going on..

and at the moment,

all those memories that we had been through,

for the past few years,

keep floating in my mind..

And i realised,

they were all really awesome memories,

we used to laugh like mad woman,

we used to shout at each others,

we used to play around in class,

we used to share our drinks together....

But now,

we are just like HI-BYE friend..

yeahhhh,

we did talk,

for like one or two sentences?

I seriously don't know what to do anymore,

Everything is just full of misunderstanding,

and its like our friendship is gonna end,

but, who will want this to happen?

noone....

anyway,

don't worry..

i will always be here for you..

Like what i always tell myself,

"Don't stop believing"...

Please be good, always!

Stay happy !

Good luck in exam too!♥

I didn't angry with you guys,

when u guys just laugh like hell,

when u guys see my sprain-ed leg,

even when u guys said i didnt appreciate,

what u all gave me last year,

because i tell myself,

Friends are really precious,

accept it, appreciate it,

and love it! :) ♥

P.S. everything is gonna be alright!